what happens to those thoughts?

often when i am at work a strange philosophical type question will pop into my head. and i think, i will store this for later thought/blogging. and then i lose it. i dont even bother posing these questions at work since all the smart people i work with are smart in a linear way. and everyone else is just stupid. plus, counting drugs takes too much concentration to speak of anything other than idle gossip and bullshit. so anyway, i get home and think to blog some thoughts and such but i find i have forgotten them. grr. i am going to start carrying a notebook just for this purpose.

after suffering a minor distraction from some music, i am back to this blog. tomk loaded me up with so much music i think if i listened every day i will never get through it. but i busted out the external hard drive so miss m could hear where the music she likes really comes from. she seriously thought that kid rock sang sweet home alabama. he samples it and sings about it but i had to set her straight. with the peanuts theme song, too. kids. sheesh.

today at the dr (pronounced drrr, not doctor) i got the excercise lecture. it went something like this- high end normal fasting blood sugar blah blah insulin resistance blah blah family history blah blah indicators for future problems blah blah. in the end it was this- apparently cardio excercise increases lean muscles sensitivity to insulin. which is a good thing since then the body does not have to make as much to carry the sugar where it needs to go. at least i think thats what she said. so starting tuesday, i am going for 4 days of at least half an hour. i hate cardio. as much as i love mt dew which i have decided to give up as well. no caffine by julians birthday is the goal. gad. i love mt dew and i live on caffine. i hope that after i am off the caffine i wont feel like i need it as much. caffine is americas number 1 mood altering drug. 9 out of 10 people use it. i am an addict.

time to hit the shower. my day started at 530 after only 3ish hours of sleep. a hot shower is just what i need.

good night

ps here is something cute just cause i love julian....